So as you know, I got news that DH and I actually DID get pregnant this last cycle. I had tested at 10 DPO (days post ovulation) and it was negative. I tested again on February 16th, 15 DPO, and it was positive. We conceived with the help of FertilAid for Men, and 100 mg of Clomid. I still cannot believe it. However, I lost our little miracle baby on February 18th around 11 pm. I had been spotting and slight cramping since
earlier but my doctor said that could be normal.
I'm really bummed that we don't get our little miracle as soon as we'd thought, but I'm also so grateful I even made it this far. This was a huge milestone for us. In this cycle alone, we detected ovulation for the first time ever, and it resulted in a beautiful miracle, and our first ever BFP (big fat positive). Yes, we lost he/she but in my heart I know it happened for a reason. I think it was to show me that it will happen and that we CAN get pregnant, even with our infertility issues. To me, that alone was worth all the effort in trying to conceive; doctor aqppointments, Clomid, Provera, FertilAid, Tea, Vitamins, Ultrasounds, BBT's, money spent on OPK's and HPT's, etc. It was just all so worth it. I know in my heart we will be parents, once and for all. I am alright.
I recently started a new job (on 2/21) and it is going well. I am learning lots, having fun, and earning money. It's kept my mind off of having a baby and DH and I decided to take a short break from trying like we were and just let what happens, happen. If we get pregnant again soon, then that is great. If not, we will wait and start trying later on this year.
I am so thankful. I have had much support through this whole thing; from trying to conceive, to discovering our infertility barriers, to finding out we finally (after almost 4 whole years!) conceived a miracle and then to finding out we lost it. I have an immense support system... thank you all for being there for me as well. XoXo
I'm really bummed that we don't get our little miracle as soon as we'd thought, but I'm also so grateful I even made it this far. This was a huge milestone for us. In this cycle alone, we detected ovulation for the first time ever, and it resulted in a beautiful miracle, and our first ever BFP (big fat positive). Yes, we lost he/she but in my heart I know it happened for a reason. I think it was to show me that it will happen and that we CAN get pregnant, even with our infertility issues. To me, that alone was worth all the effort in trying to conceive; doctor aqppointments, Clomid, Provera, FertilAid, Tea, Vitamins, Ultrasounds, BBT's, money spent on OPK's and HPT's, etc. It was just all so worth it. I know in my heart we will be parents, once and for all. I am alright.
I recently started a new job (on 2/21) and it is going well. I am learning lots, having fun, and earning money. It's kept my mind off of having a baby and DH and I decided to take a short break from trying like we were and just let what happens, happen. If we get pregnant again soon, then that is great. If not, we will wait and start trying later on this year.
I am so thankful. I have had much support through this whole thing; from trying to conceive, to discovering our infertility barriers, to finding out we finally (after almost 4 whole years!) conceived a miracle and then to finding out we lost it. I have an immense support system... thank you all for being there for me as well. XoXo
I was so sorry to hear about the miscarriage, Audrey. You have such an incredibly positive attitude and that can only bring you good things!
ReplyDeleteThank you my dear! That means a lot. :)
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