Provera Day 5

So today is the 5th day being on Provera and I feel totally fine. The only side effects (and they are minor) is breast tenderness and a TINY amount of lower cramps here and there. I admit, on day #2, I had a teeeeeny tiny mood swing (tiny to me but probably not so small to DH!) but I honestly haven't noticed much else. Out of the all the side effects, I feel I've gotten lucky. My doctor told me that I will probably have low side effects with the Clomid as well, so that is good to know!

This means I only have 2 more days of Provera and then *hopefully* my AF arrives. I am now CD 41 and man, I never thought I'd be wanting my AF quite so much as I do right now!!!! Who knew infertility would bring on so much humility and overall respect for the female reproductive system? I guess that saying is true that the Lord will only give you what you can handle, and while I don't know if we will even end up with a child after all of this, I do know now that I can handle it. It's hard, it's devastating and I will never forget the things I've felt and realized, but I can say that it has made me extremely appreciative. I think women who struggle to become mothers are the ones who end up making the best mothers. Anyone can want to be a parent. But it takes a strong, amazing woman to FIGHT for motherhood. I think this is one of the reasons my Mom is such an incredible person and mother. She struggled with unexplained infertility and only got 3 children in 20 years without contraception. She loves, supports and cherishes her children no matter how old they get, no matter what they do or have done and is really without a doubt, an amazing parent. I hope and pray that I am half the momma she is!

I'm spending the night with my DH and nephew and we are having a blast playing games on the Wii and PS2. We enjoyed a pepperoni pizza with a big salad and are now about to watch some tv. I feel blessed to have the things I do in my life and most definitely ready for the next phase that my doctor has planned for me. Fingers and toes crossed for a quick AF arrival and a good response to Clomid. Maybe, just maybe, we will receive our New Years BFP?!?!?

XoXo