Last night, around 10 pm, I started getting some
intense cramps. They were tolerable. DH and I went to bed around 11 I
simply could NOT fall asleep. The pain in my lower back and lower
abdomen was so intense, I kept tossing and turning and trying not to
scream. I took a super hot bath and cried. So, after the bath and
talking to my oldest sister for nearly 2 hours via text, I finally felt
sleepy enough to just fall asleep.
I woke up to take my BBT and wow... excruciating pain. At this
point though, I could barely stand up from the toilet. My lower back is
in so much pain. I feel like my insides are ripping out of me and then
my feet and ankles started to ache, like in the joints. I managed to
zombie-walk back to the bed. I fell back asleep until DH came home with
some lunch and after not having any fast-food for a long time, it was
nice to scarf down a Whopper. I was super hungry and it tasted like a
pile of heaven. He also got me an ice cold Diet Coke and- what a
gentleman- a heating pad. Lord he is such a good husband. He makes me
want to just pinch his buttcheeks right off. So, we ate (on our bed like
animals) and talked for a few minutes before he headed back out. I am
now pretty much stuck to the bed since I can't really move. I switch the
heating pad from my lower back, to my lower abdomen and vice versa
every 20 minutes. It is helping but wow- this is intense. I called my
doctor just to make sure this is normal and not too severe and his nurse
said "Yep, Provera can cause some really horrible cramps and pain. He
said that it is normal." She then said "He's had a few patients who
can't get out of bed at all." that made me feel better so I said "Well,
add me to that list!" and she laughed. So, I guess I'm not dying after
all. (Imagine my surprise?)
Now here it is, 1 pm and I'm still in my santa claus pj shirt.
Yeah, I have a santa claus shirt... lol It's a t-shirt that looks like a
santa claus suit and on the left side of the chest it says "Does this
suit make me look fat?" It's actually suppose to be DH's shirt but, like
every other "lounge" shirt he gets, I steal and wear when I'm having a
down day. There is just something nice about his big shirts that make me
feel comforted when he is away.
Here is a little other news. It doesn't have anything to do with
my cramps, but DH is applying for a promotion at the police station and
if he gets it, it will be a nice raise and FULL benefits for everything;
dental, vision, medical, 401k, paid vacation and sick leave, paternity
leave, etc. If he gets the job, we will also be moving. Right now we are
in a 2 bedroom, 1 bath house and although I love it for the most part, I
know we are ready for something bigger and nicer with less stress.
Right now, if we had a baby, i'd have to get rid of my office to make it
the baby's room.This house has radiant heating, EXCEPT for the second
bedroom and that is simply not okay. There is no way we could have a
baby in that room during the winter, so it's definite that we'd need to
move anyway. We also would like our own bathroom separate than the one
for guests. I love the big vaulted ceilings, the walk-in closet and the
huge rooms, but I know we can find something else that has all that, and
more. We started looking at houses yesterday and if we increased our
monthly payments by a couple hundred bucks, we can get A LOT more in this
area and surrounding areas. we found an AMAZING house in Springville,
which is 2 small cities from where we are at. We're in Orem and his work
is in Provo. Springville is south of Provo so it's literally a hop,
skip and jump away from where we are now and it's in a lovely suburban
community. The house is huge- 3 nice big rooms, 2 full big baths. Master
bedroom with walk in closet and an en-suite master bath. Nice vaulted
ceilings, nice big kitchen with stainless steel appliances, brand new
huge washer and dryer, 2 car garage, a big basement, fenced back yard,
formal dining, the list seems to go on and on. I fell in love when I saw
the pictures and literally, if we could move there right now, I'd
already be packing EVEN WITH all this painful cramping. It is just so
pretty and exactly what we want in a house. I don't think we'd ever need
anything more than this, so I could see us being there very long term.
There wasn't one thing I'd change about it. And for the price... oh my
gosh! what a great deal! I'm having a hard time believing it's still on
the market! DH said it's a sign, that it's waiting for us. LOL We like
to pretend and dream and right now, I think life would be so on track if
A. he got the job B. we got that house and then C. we got pregnant. All
of our dreams would be coming true... is that even possible in life????
Anyway, I just made myself get up and walk around and use the
restroom and I am soooo pleased to say that it is now 1:31 pm and after 3
months of waiting, I JUST GOT MY PERIOD!!!!!!!!!!! :)
I hope everyone is having a great day and week. Thanks for all of
the support, love, prayers and care! Sending you all good fertile vibes
and magic this season!
XoXo
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