I can’t actually believe that another year has come and gone. I am surprised to see this year fly by so quickly, but on an infertility note, it has been a long year. If there is one thing I have learned dealing with infertility, it is to remain true to who I am inside. My values on life are very strong and I believe deeply in the love of marriage and the biologically given right to be a parent. We will fight! Day after day, week after week, month after month and year after year. Anyone can want to be a parent but us humble and strong people are beyond ready to fight for it. I have met some amazing people in 2011, and I am so thankful for you all!
My New Years Resolutions; I have quite a few:
1. appreciate the little things I'll miss after motherhood. For instance, enjoying a nice glass of wine, or an ice cold Pina Colada. Staying up late for fun, having random and spontaneous "love sessions" anytime and anywhere we want, sleeping in as late as I want, minimal laundry duties and the freedom to do what I want, when I want.
2. be more humble; count my blessings everyday. I will try really hard to say my prayers every night. Like I've said before, I am NOT religious. But I am spiritual and I believe in the healing powers of prayer. I have so much to be thankful for every single day, and I need to remember that- always.
3. Stay healthy- I have about 25+ lbs of excess "chunk" on my body that I'd clearly LOVE to shed. But, my goal isn't about weight. I am actually a healthy person, so far. I have no medical conditions, excluding my lack of fertility. I'd like to remain healthy, as well as improve my health overall. I will practice yoga and maintain a less-stressed outlook on life, and on those "down-days" I will accept it, welcome it and then move on. I will continue eating foods that make me feel good inside and out, as well as making smarter choices when the temptations get too strong.
4. I will be me. I will never stop being who I am, no matter how painful this journey is. I will never stop loving myself completely, and I will try harder to embrace my body, my life, and who I am. I will laugh, dance, sing, goof around and be just who I am, even if people are looking. I will be optimistic and hopeful and continue to live in my "fairytale fantasy-land" because that is what makes me happy. If that bothers someone or causes someone to mock me, then I will simply smile and wish them peace in their own hearts.
5. Lastly is pretty obvious; I will do whatever we have to do to get our baby down from heaven! Everything above is aimed at improving my life, as well as the life of those around me. I will fight and stay humble when dealing with infertility and when that time comes where I can shout to the world that I am finally going to be a mother, I will be proud, excited, thankful, and gracious. I will cherish every moment, from beginning to end and I will continue to fight and support those who struggle for their own child.
I hope all of you are having a nice weekend and had a safe holiday. Here's to the new year- may it be filled with love, hope and the joys of motherhood. XoXo, Cheers!
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