CD 21

I gave in and took a digital HPT and it was a BFN. It's been concluded today that I'm not responding to Clomid. I haven't ovulated yet this cycle, (that I know of) and it just isn't working. At this point, I'm switching doctors and going to an RE who shows some sort of... aggression. I am tired of being grouped into some infertile glob of women... I am unique. What works for some, doesn't work for all. Clomid isn't working and I'm not going to "up my dose" yet again without getting some sort of sign that it's working. So, I am waiting for a phone call to schedule an appt to meet with a new doctor. (that is if they even accept my insurance)

So, to sum this cycle up; I started spotting on Jan. 11th. The doctor told me to count that as CD 1 even though there was no real flow the entire days following. I started Clomid on January 15th and then was set to ovulate today, CD 21. It hasn't happened, and I went through all 7 digital OPK's. I am still hoping that by some miracle I did already ovulate or I do ovulate tomorrow. My next AF is set to start in 14 days, on February 14th (Valentines Day- oh boy!) and I think it would just be an AMAZING Valentines day present if AF doesn't show up and we get our BFP. I'm not holding my breath, but I think that would be awesome.

I've had ovary pain come and go this cycle. Today I feel it on both sides. I was cramping yesterday night on my left side (the open tube) and I've had a bloated feeling for days. My BBT dipped down on Sunday and yesterday and then today, it jumped up. I was sure today was my OD. I am bummed to see yet another -OPK. I'm pretty much confused but there isn't really anything else I can do. If nothing else, it's just good to know that I didn't screw up keeping track of this cycle and then it really is CD 21.

I'm ready to just feel better. I start having optimistic days but, it's just very hard when bad news comes. I hope to find some answers soon. I'm also ready to ditch about 25 lbs. I know that my weight isn't affecting my fertility. We know what our infertility issues are. Losing weight probably woin't help anything, but it won't hurt either. Plus, I just need to FEEL better about myself. Everyone assumes that if you are overweight at ALL, that is why you can't conceive. It's such bull. There are some very large women who conceive without any effort and there are some very physically fit women who struggle with infertility. Infertility isn't anyone's fault... it's a condition that we can't really control.

Anyway, just a little update. Thanks for reading... XoXo