Motherhood Down the Drain

so my husband just had a sperm analysis done yesterday. We got the results today. His sperm count and volume was excellent. However, his motility was low, and his morphology was horrible. More than half of them are abnormal. The normal form was very low and the abnormal form was high. I am feeling so incredibly down right now that I can barely function.

I've also been doing some research on Anovulation and my new doctor seems to think that might be my own issue. Basically, I still get periods, fairly on time, but I don't ovulate. That's why I have several healthy eggs on my ovaries, but I simply don't ovulate.  As of a few days ago, I've been having cramps in my lower abdomen and around my ovaries. I assumed it was my period coming since it is not 1 week late. I also thought it could be pregnancy pains somehow so I of course took 2 Clearblue Digital pregnancy tests. Both read "Not Pregnant". I should have waited for DH's Sperm Analysis results before getting my hopes up at all.

So now at this point, it's come to our attention that without IVF, our chances of conceiving are really low, practically impossible. I don't want to do IVF for the simple fact that it is way too expensive, with such a low success rate. Even if I tempted the idea of doing IVF or IUI, we would have to wait AT LEAST 2 years before doing so, since it costs WAY to much money. I am having a hard time coming to terms that I won't get to be a mother. I was so optimistic yesterday and now today after hearing this, I am just sick to my stomach. I know that there are other ways to try and conceive in our situation but I simply don't think we should have to. I don't understand why anyone has to struggle with infertility. Isn't it our right to be able to procreate? My entire life I've been told one man and one woman get fall in love, get married, have children and live happily ever after. I get it seems like a fantasy to some people but I was told that. I believed in that. My father ruined my view of men for so many years. I still hate what he did to my mom and our family. I don't honestly think I can ever forget it. And then I found my husband... and he is everything my dad is not and everything I dreamed a husband  would be. WE FOLLOWED THE PLAN. We met, fell in love, got married, and now where is our baby? Don't we deserve what everyone else does? At this point in time, I simply don't want to get out of bed. I am hoping this will pass but I will be honest, it has ruined my faith and rocked my belief system to the core.